by Merhamet Miller
The Divine Masculine God is not hard to find whether you call him Allah, Buddha, Jesus, Jehovah, Yahweh, Mithra, Pan, Odin, Him.
If you search for him, he is everywhere. He is vertical and above the ground.
The tree that you see above the ground is the God, the mailboxes you pass on the street, every building, every column, everything that projects outward and upward points us to the obvious answer, the sun beams down upon you…”I am God” they all reverberate.
You can visit any synagogue, temple, mosque or church and hear his words, see paintings, murals, stain glass windows to him, sing about him, and eat his body and drink his blood in the form of “sacraments”; and usually see an image of him dispensing the sacraments to you as a “he”.
But if you are searching for something more than the God; and trying to resolve the other half or yourself you are going to have to go on a journey, a quest if you will…and at this time in the new millennial many of us have embarked upon that adventure.
You feel it: the tugging, the longing, the whispering in the breeze; a soft gentle yearning. There seems to be an emptiness within you and it needs to be filled.
Visual images flicker in your mind, you see beyond the “projected veil” that’s made by humans. You “sense” there is something more out there. Where are you?, What are you?, you find yourself asking.
The inner pushing and longing does not dissipate, you try to fill it with socialization, lovers, friends, alcohol, recreational drugs…but they all leave you wanting.
You can feel the answer so close to you that your fingertips tingle in anticipation but still…nothing.
Sometimes you sense that you have seen it or felt it, when you listen to a song and the lyrics are speaking straight to your heart. When you send out a prayer and the billboard you pass on the freeway states exactly what you needed to hear.
You scan newspapers, magazines, read every written word you can find; and sometimes you hear that voice speaking to you and it brings you comfort and fulfillment like you have never felt before.
Yet our modern civilization tried to convince you that your “hearing and seeing things” and “reading meaning” is just nonsensical whimsy.
In quiet desperation you find yourself longing to speak to others and communicate. To do this you have to create something because words cannot say what it is you long to express.
You write essays, you paint pictures, you dance until you drop, you create music, you write poetry, you take photographs.
“Look at what I am hearing”, you state to the world, “listen to the words.”
“I hear , I know things,” you scream in the physical with your creations. Yet, no amount of crowd funding, selling of your works, friends laughing, and smoke billowing brings you the answer you are looking for.
You are still looking EXTERNALLY. Your society has conditioned you so well; externalization is not the answer.
Within each of us are two halves. One that is anima and one that is animus, yin and yang, feminine and masculine; these are internal feelings and ways of being.
We attempt to externalize them through clothing styles, gestures, tattoos, walking, posturing, styling our hair, growing out facial hair or removing it, and yet no externalization of our physical form truly expresses the mystery.
You can join online mystery schools, find a physical mentor teacher who will share with you his/her experiences, you can be buried alive in a box, sensory deprived, sensory overloaded, dunked in a body of water, covered in a shroud, given an online certification but until you understand the true mystery of HER you will always be in a fog.
No amount of makeup, high heels, skirts, breasts, vaginas, defines the Feminine divine. She is within you.
She is the Creatrix, the part of you that longs to express, to communicate, to share, to give, to bring about. She pushes you with a longing to be more you!
She whispers to you that you are enough, that you have to deal with your shit and figure out how to heal yourself. And through dealing with your personal demons and slaying them you, too, will become Goddess.
She acknowledges your hurt, and embraces you, but she states…”give it time and you will heal”. When you dwell too long in the victim role, she pushes you to get up shake it off and get back in there and assert your bad ass self.
She, like any divine one makes you indulge in rest and self-care when you are bordering on exhaustion.
She tells you to always extend compassion and kindness from your heart. She shows you that you are perfect in her eyes, and absolutely capable of the greatest wisdom of the ages.
She says, “wisdom is gained from experience, not books; go on out there and fall down, get up, brush it off, break a bone, get it set, fight cancer, survive it, lose a spouse, a child, a job, still find a reason to live, now you have gotten it little one; now you are learning how to fly!”
We go outside and raise our hands upward to the moon and the stars and say…”Come into me Goddess,” believing we draw her down into us.
We are so programmed to think of the Divine outside of us that we cannot seem to grasp that it resides within us.
The Goddess laughs at us, thinking we are amusing and states; “I am in you, just listen. For like the moon itself, I dwell within the deep waters of your body. I am in your organs, I am in your breath, I am in your bones, how can I enter you when I am already there? If you look in the mirror and listen to me you might have known that already.”
We still do not understand that this “Drawing down the moon” is a mystery, a tool to help us hear her more clearly it does not mean that she is not within us.
“For behold, I have been with you from the beginning, and I am That which is attained at the end of desire and you who seek to know Me, know that the seeking and yearning will avail you not, unless you know the Mystery: for if that which you seek, you find not within yourself, you will never find it without.”—Charge of the Goddess by Doreen Valiente
As the seasons change her voice becomes louder and more evident.
Listen to the Divine feminine within you.
Go on your quest, wander, get lost, find yourself again, fall down, fall apart, pull yourself together, and embrace your divinity; for thou art Goddess, as well as God.
About the Author:
Merhamet Miller is a prosperous bold sorceress who teaches classes about various magical subjects, Nest Coordinator for Quantum Myrrh www.quantummyrhh.webs.com and lives on a sustainable rabbit farm with friends and chosen family. You can catch her online at her facebook group Blood and Bone, Flesh and Stone, where she discusses and shares her interests of quirky “Occultisms”.
featured image “Seek and ye shall find me”—attributed to Osiris and Jehovah – Source
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