by Renee Damoiselle
ARE you pretty? Are you all love and light?
Do you manifest with positive intentions directed towards the highest good of all? But you still have questions. It doesn’t always work, right?
Or do you consider yourself an embracer of the dark?
Are you a witch of spellcraft, concocting potions, and using exacting herbal correspondences? Does your magick always produce what you want (or what you think you want)?
The trouble is, you’re radiating instead of incubating! Whether you radiate dark or light, it’s still an outward display.
You still keep thinking the answers are somewhere out there! They’re not!
Spend a ton of quality time with YOURSELF – and nothing else. You keep seeking outwardly for your answers and solutions. But all the answers are IN you.
They are what scares you! They are in what you deny! The answers you seek are in the things that you shun, the things that cause you shame.
At first glance they are hideous, grotesque, like those mysterious creatures from the bottom of the ocean.
Mine your Depths, My Pretty!
Dive! Dive down as deep as you can go.
The blue/black ocean is calling your name. Sink yourself into it and allow the water to envelop and embrace you.
As you drop deeper the embrace covering every inch of you tightens and turns to pressure. You are being squeezed and challenged.
And as you descend into the darker, deeper depths, and your lungs constrict, you think that perhaps you see a tiny point of light below.
You try to reach it and then the urgency for air and relief from the pressure forces you back to the surface, back to light and oxygen.
But now you know there are secrets down there. So, you dive once again and, again, you are inundated and pressed, but go a bit deeper this time and that glowing point of light, takes on a bit of a shape, alien and unlikely.
You surface again, with that glow in your mind’s eye, eager to see it more clearly.
So, you dive again and again until you build up a tolerance to the pressure, until your eyes adjust more quickly to darkness, until you can go lengths of time without breathing.
And at the outer limits of your conscious understanding there is a feeling, a glimmer of an idea, that says – this is you.
All of it is you, no matter how dark, no matter how intense the pressure, no matter how alien and unlikely. It is all part of you and you thirst for deeper understanding.
Dive again, to fathoms, to atmospheres! Don’t quit this work!
Finally, you are able to withstand the depth at which one of these bioluminescent creatures can be viewed clearly and it is deeply shocking.
It is repellent to your conscious mind. Even its glow of light is somehow sickly and dark.
Everything about it, from its needle-like teeth to its gelatinous skin, screams poison and you wonder why you spent all the effort to get down this deep, just to see such a thing.
But you can appreciate its power, its luminous, dangerous potential.
You look at it more closely and want clearer vision of what this could truly be. While you struggle against the pressure of the deep, this creature is aided by it.
The weight of the water surrounding this animal is part of what gives it its density of destructive force.
Carefully cupping your hands around it, you begin to rise, herding it out of the depths.
As you pass through the atmospheres, toward the light and the surface, the thing seems softer and more vulnerable. Its edges soften.
A tooth flies off and floats away. The creature is “loosening” and losing its structure. The closer you get to the surface, the further it decays.
But this is not decomposition precisely, it is Dis-Integration.
And yet this wild thing is possessed of an energy and that energy must go somewhere and suddenly you realize as the ominous parts of this creature dissolve, its pure dark power is absorbed by your being.
It is no longer harmful to you. No, you are enhanced by this. You’ve drawn up and assimilated the driving force of this denizen of the depths to use as you will.
You are back at the surface, breathing and smiling with your new found potential.
Then, it occurs to you that there are more like this, larger and uglier, darker and more dangerous, deeper down.
And you know you will mine your depths, over and over again, for that power.
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About the Author:
Renée Damoiselle is a Worldly Wise Crone Witch with personal ties to warrior deities. Her “raised eyebrow” style of Truth-Telling enables her clients to face the realities of their challenges and triumphs with confidence and humor (each when necessary). Renée is the Author of the forthcoming book from Red Wheel Weiser publishers entitled, Storytelling Alchemy – Write Your Own Happy Ending. She offers divination and coaching combining Cartomancy, Reiki, Skrying, Mediumship and a healthy dose of good old common sense. She also offers many workshops and talks and facilitates spiritual retreats. Friend her on Facebook.
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